My inspiration for writing in the rain
May 24, 2007
With summer classes over, I find myself in a position where boredom is an integral part of everyday living. Living in a semi-isolated place in the mountain with no one to talk to and the nearest peer living a few kilometers away doesn't help ease this feeling of extreme boredom. What's more is that in just a few days, I'll be a year older so I really need to get rid of this depressing mood that has been bugging me for quite some time now.
This post is really long overdue since…
…the photo management application of i.ph seems to be always acting up whenever I try posting. I think it's a problem on my part since it got fixed when I updated my Java.
Anyway, summer is almost at its end. It's been raining all week and all it does to this stagnant state of mine is worsen it. For one, I both like and hate the rain. I've written more than once why and I'm extremely lazy today to elaborate so I'll not write about it. To cut it short, the rain is melancholic.
Reminiscing about an entry I wrote one year ago, I've been swept by the fast and unstoppable flow of time. Goodbye teen-age life hello twenties. I feel extremely depressed whenever I looked back in time. I feel as if I wasted so much time doing nothing when I could have done so many things. I laugh at myself when I think about these things since if I think about it, it's just 20 years; there so much time ahead of me. Is this hope? I don't really like "hope" since too much hope leads to despair. But then again despair leads to hope - well, I guess that's life.
To regret or not to regret? I've done so much regretting is just plain depressing.
Random Rant
kaya hindi umaasenso ang Pilipinas eh…
Am I not normal?
As I was browsing during my spells of boredom, I manage to came across alexa.com, an internet research group. It's a group that makes lists of top 500 websites every month and I manage land myself into the Philippines top 100 sites. What's funny is that as I was browsing through the list (Yahoo! being no.1 and Friendster no.2 which is not surprising) I was surprised to know that no.25 was a porn site. That's not all, there's about a handful of such site in the Philippines top 100. I compared it to some of our SE neighbor and found out that no site of that nature is in their top 50 or even top 60. Where's the rant then? You might ask. This reminded me of how much the "tambay" in the shop I am playing (which I have no relation whatsoever beside playing with DotA once in a while) is "thirsty" for such material. I find it really funny and at the same time extremely annoying. For one, don't they know that browsing such sites in public is really illegal. Maybe if I got extremely pissed I'll call for a sting operation and land them to jail *insert sinister laughter here*. The thing is, what they are doing is hogging lots of bandwidth to the already bottlenecked internet connection of the shop. I can forgive them if they're doing something productive but heck?! I really find it funny to look at their reactions and behavior when they view such material. I mean, is it "always" their first time to see coitus and the genitalia. I laugh, I don't really find anything amusing on what they are doing.
Anyway, this rant is primarily due to the lag I always experience while playing RF Online that is a direct result result of what they are doing. Just so one might know, 12 hours of playing = 20~25%% exp so a level down is extremely frustrating.
