I’m in Despair!
October 9, 2007I'm in despair! This boring life of mine has left me in despair!
I think I might have watched too much of Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei as my usually positive outlook about the world is slowly becoming dim leaving me in despair. I guess that's what happen when I think about life too seriously that after pondering about life and the everyday world, everything seems too dull and too ordinary. I can't blame myself though since apparently I'm having yet another spell of acute depression from having too much inactivity. Too put it short, I'm just bored.
The cool nostalgic breeze. Christmas is just around the corner eh? There's something about the air this season that makes me suddenly go into a melancholic mood. With just about 2 months to go before Christmas, I can't help but think that I was once again swept by the flow of time without me even knowing it. My mind is still stuck somewhere in the past and it's creating problems for the me now. No it's not an identity crisis, I've been there and over it already, it's something far more complicated than that and something I can't really explain it well myself. I don't know. It seems like I am lost again and there's no signs or directions for the next few kilometers ahead.
I've been itching to write this thing but, I don't know, I can't find time to write it. It's another one of those inane synchronicity.
Inane Synchronicity # 5: Someone out there is playing with my life
There's just to many coincidences in my life - too much really - that I'm beginning to wonder whether there's someone out there controlling the direction of my life and that said person is a really mischievous one.
I may not look like it but I'm a hopeless romantic. I'm in love with love but I'm also in love with somebody (it's one sided and she most probably has someone already but I'm happy just with that and yes you can call me a fool, an idiot whatever you like) so maybe this fact greatly contributed to the resolve I made not too long ago. On the day I made that resolve. I asked my occult….err…I mean really normal friend (I hope he's not reading this) to give me a Tarot reading and much too my surprise, he got most of the things right. The thing is, that same night I got an sms message and it is (you probably guessed it right) from her. Now you might think that this is normal but in my case it's not since my cellphone is more like an electronic book rather than a communication device because of the rarity that it is actually used in communicating. I rarely send messages and it's even rarer that I receive text messages so you can see how mischievous this person controlling the direction of my life is by instating that coincidence.
And it never stopped there. Why is it that those rare text messages keep on coming in when they are needed the most like when these acute depression spells kicks in and such.
Well anyway, she agreed to meet me this month though I still haven't decided on when or where - I'm really a worthless person ain't I?
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Speaking of October, this is going to be one heck of a month. Finals are just a few weeks away and, if my estimate is correct, the deadline for that art competition will be on Finals week too!!
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Hi! I’m the author of this blog but I decided to moved to wordpress some time last year so this blog is officially closed.
Anyway, thanks for the comment.
As for your questions. We never did met during that time and we lost contact with each other before October ended. It was only recently, after a year or so from posting this blog entry, that we manage to have contact again.
Hopefully everything works out fine this time around ^^
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